![]() ![]() I think that’s why the cats are acting weird. Listening to Blue Mitchell right now while wondering if my cat’s kidneys are failing while dreading tomorrow. That sentence would be an example of that work. All of these take up space in my brain while some other part of my brain is crunching the soul numbers and working existential equations. Food shopping, cooking, laundry, refilling bird feeders, fixing a gate, playing records, playing guitar, watching old movies, watching old comedy, reading news, reading not news, sex, sleep, watching reels, making and drinking coffee, etc. Lately, perhaps because I own a house, doing nothing is actually very busy. Myself outside of doing nothing is very active mentally. Actively telling me I’m doing nothing but sometimes writing something down trying to make sense of the world and myself. There were years where I made no money and self-employment felt a lot like doing nothing but with a very active brain. Thursday I talk to Adam Conover about his career and about his work on the negotiating team for the WGA. Today I have an amazing conversation with Alex Winter about his new doc The YouTube Effect, along with his other docs and his life. I should just figure out how to be here more, as much as possible, as I get older. I don’t want to live in the fucking country. I can be spontaneous about engaging with the most interesting people I know and seeing the best of what art and life is about. It’s a short trip everywhere and the journey is engaging. I just came here wide open and I spent many hours talking with friends, seeing art, doing comedy, eating. Friends, strangers, performers, artists, weirdos, tradesmen, and on and on into some Whitmanesque list. I realized this trip that if what I am working toward is spending part of my life, what’s left of it, enjoying it by being thoroughly engaged in living it, body and spirit, NYC is the only place for me.Īside from being one with the city in a general way, there are also people all over I can engage with. My brain interfaces and is dwarfed and appropriated by the city. I found that it has a Ritalin effect on me. Some massive, organic, multi-faceted beast that I can become part of and lose myself in. The problem is, I am still alone doing it most of the time. A lot of it I do to counter the anxious business of my brain. It’s not a complete waste of time because most of it needs to be done. I can spend all day at my house just doing shit. I don’t even mind LA right now because there’s water and the weather hasn’t really been as apocalyptic as elsewhere. I realized that I do love my house in LA. That happened, but there was still something different about this trip. I already knew that my spirit is fueled by Manhattan and I need to fill up a few times a year. I just needed to be in a city, THE city, the best city, really. ![]() That was probably the biggest difference from most of my trips. There was absolutely no reason for me to go other than I wanted to go. I just had the best trip to NYC I’ve had in years. ![]()
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